New Goal

A few weeks later and what has happened....well I haven't been to WW for a few weeks. My depression got the better of me, and I burnt out after boot camp, blood pressure dropped, so have been resting up for the past week or so.

Went to the doctor, as no pregnancy luck. I could see in her eyes, she doesn't have a lot of options left. She wants me to consider spending a lot of money on lap band surgery ($15-20,000) - don't have it anyway. However, at this point I don't want it. I'm not in this for a quick fix (although if it didnt cost anything, I may have considered it), but its not going to make me fit. I told her Im the fittest Ive been for ages, smaller now than what I was when having periods so don't get it. My cholesterol is fine, and don't have diabetes. So next step - referral to the gynocologist/fertility clinic to see if taking chlomiphene will be an option. I wasn't upset so much this time....see what happens I guess. Reading info on it, weirdly enough, Body builders use it as it is a steroid....eeek! I've also started thinking about adoption.

Anyway, still getting hypnotised. It's awesome! Last one this week coming. Not sure if completely working, but only time will tell. Need to saturate the sub consciencous with suggestions over and over. I have a very strong mind over matter - could explain a lot with how I think!

Just found out next boot camp is early October - outside one - hoping for more car pulling :)

At the weekend, I spent it at Fitness testing/profiling school for my uni paper. It was at the stadium. Totally wicked weekend - met people on my course, got to design fitness circuits and show fellow students how they worked, learnt how to take blood pressure, and do skin fold tests, looked a facilities to use to measure if people have the right positioning in exercises (called time warp). We also had to give a presentation on a programme profile for an athlete of our choice. I used a volleyball player from a school team. Even though Im a teacher, I hate getting up infront of my peers, but I think it went alright, although won't know I guess until I get the mark, but good feedback - especially since I was the only one who hasn't or isn't in the fitness industry! I am heaps more confident in writing fitness programmes for people now!

The other thing I decided after being all inspired! Im going to do the Ocean Swim on January 30th - not the 2.8 km but the 750m swim in the Wellington harbour. I figure I can do this, and be a good way to get back in the pool and increase my fitness further. I also figure I need a distraction - and this one is a healthy one!

Below is a couple of pics of my rugby team Im manager for at school. Got to the finals but got beaten by St Marys - great team though! :) Proud of them!

Okay, stop procrastinating Cassie - do some exam marking!

2nd bootcamp almost done!

Three weeks of boot camp down, now in the last week. Different to the first one, this one has mainly been gym work with warm ups consisting of runs, or going up and up and up stairs, and then again with weights. I have got a lot fitter I have noticed, and while still a bit behind in the runs, I am not that far behind and am running further before I need to walk...yay!

The gym work consists of intense circuits, do it for a minute then onto the next exercise. I like the boxing stuff, thats fun. I dislike tricep dips and these things called Russian twists which after 5...Im done! Im the only girl in this group and its great...I told them it was like being in a gorilla pit. The boys took no offence and embraced it. No sympathy, lots of taking the piss, and even a phone to tell you that you suck when you sleep in (needless to say, I have not missed a session since then!). All in all it is good, but sometimes knowing I have to go to work afterwards and not back to bed makes the day a little longer!

On the weight front, this last week I put on 2 kilos...what the hell?? My weight has jumped around the same point for about a month now. One week a gain, next week a loss. Im not quite sure what is going on...probably the damn hormones in their viscious cycle. I get so close to my 10% weight loss mark and then I put on 2 kilos and it feels ripped away. Last week I did indulged a little but with all the exercise I am doing I did not expect such a jump up. So weight loss is now at 15.4 kilos (I think), which is dumb and I am disappointed in myself. Guess will have to work that much harder!

The Wii is cool and will get into in more when bootcamp finishes. It was just too much doing the workouts there, walking and doing the boot camp, and then working and having some energy left over. The wii has a great variety of workouts, and include tennis, boxing and basketball..nice!

Im still not pregnant and got down about it again last week. The abundance of pregnant people Im noticing around and at work just doesnt help. It has become my achilles heel, and even just the thought of it now can make me cry. Anyway went to my NLP therapist last week and told him about this. We had a hypnotherapy session in which I cannot tell you what he said, he worked on my self esteem. I completely relaxed, and it was awesome. This week the hypnotherapy will focus on my relationship with food and exercise, and making me more positive about becoming pregnant as apparently my mindset is becoming increasingly negative. Here's hoping!

The Wii

We bought a Nintendo Wii last weekend, me getting games that are exercise workouts. Im trying to jazz up my fitness regime and when my Les Mills contract is finally up, I figure that membership will pay for the Wii.

Any who, today I did my first workout. It was cool, you get to create a profile of yourself - shape, hair, clothes, hat, shoes, gender. This was EA sports active Personal Trainer.

I chose the 30 day challenge starting initially on the low intensity programme. The programme today consisted of walking, running, boxing, squats (they are everywhere), rows, bicep curls, inline skating and side lunges. I honestly had a sweat on at the end - gained two trophies - completing day 1 and burning 100 calories - I love the trophies! I really recommend it, looked a little munterish at times BUT its in the privacy of your own home.

Also managed a half hour walk too - good day for exercise!

On the week - a really varied week - did not get enough exercise in and I have had huge cravings for chocolate! I have indulged too, two lots of indian/asian in 2 nights. Ouch. I gained a kilo at WW this week - I actually wasnt that upset about it - I could see where it came from!

Observations noted -

Being a parent to three kids would be an easy way to keep fit - I helped out on Saturday night at Aarons, and being the tickle monster, the train driver, the seeker takes it out of you - I slept well that night!

Dont go to bed angry with your husband - our first major fight with shouting - got the bed to myself - but no good sleep - resolved now though, but if you want sleep do it before you want some!

I notice cliques at work even though Im in my 30's, there is still exclusion. Is that just because I work as a teacher, or does that occur in what ever job you are in?

We got the Picton house for the holidays - Yay!!! Lets hope for good weather :)

Have a good week.

On the up...

Hard to believe school holidays are over already!

Things have been going well over the last couple of weeks. Im feeling fairly upbeat about things, have rested a lot and caught up with family and friends over the last couple of weeks.

I visited Dunedin to see family and meet my best friends bubba Otis. What a cute baby and so good too. I'm glad I was in a better place to be excited for Frances and Shane and their new arrival :). Spent lots of time and was amazed how well Frances is doing - such a natural mum!

Just completed session 8 of my NLP therapy. Concentrated on exercise and started self esteem and working on feeling better about myself. While I know and have become more aware

of food, where I want to go, and know that I have lost weight and inches, I still have a poor picture of myself. We're working on that, and now Anthony is pulling me up on each time I dont take a compliment or put myself down. Apparently it is quite a lot.

Bought a nintendo wii today - with a wii fit and a couple of exercise programme games (also some other games and shoot 'em ups for Anthony). I'm trying this new way of exercising, looks fun!

On the weight loss, am down another 1.1 kilos now (2.4lbs). Stoked! Now Im at a 17.5 kilo loss (38.5lbs). While Im sure Ive gone over my 10% goal - the WW people said I have a little more to go (900g). Im sure I got there this week with my calculation - no matter - I'll get it and that keyring to show it too :)


May it be a good week!

A Month on....

I realised it has been a while since I updated things. Last time I posted, I was in a fairly dark place, and not too happy about life in general.

A month later.....

Things have changed along the positive route.

Firstly, the PCOS. I went to the Endocrinologist at the hospital. My results in his words... "Nothing spectacular" - said in a dry doctor monotone. What does this mean? Well, while some of my hormones are out of whack, they are not off the charts, and while they could be linked to PCOS, it is not a full blown case, and I am merely showing some vague symptoms of it.

YAY! This was the best news ever! It literally changed my view on things. To work on my hormones, I went on high progesterone pills to bring my period back....which worked!!! After my own research, I may need to do this for a couple of months to get them more regular. I cut the metformin out for a while and am returning to it gradually. This should help with other hormones. So there is hope! I am a changed person from a month ago. I have also talked to a lot of people, some of which have had PCOS or hormone issues but have beaten the odds and have had children. Once the cycle has sorted itself, work on ovulation and fertility.....never know that may come on its own :)

On the weight loss.....

I took 6 weeks off WW. It was just something I could not deal with. I was pretty good with exercise and eating. The best news was when I went back on Saturday, I had lost 2.8 kilos (6.2lbs).

That was a pleasant surprise. Now brings my total weight loss to 16.5 kilos (36.3lbs). YAY!

I continue to go to my Neuro Linguistic Therapy. Its doing wonders, and is increasing my awareness of how I think, misconceptions about food that have been ingrained into my head for years and years. And some of the real underlying reasons, I want to lose weight, be fit and healthy. The same words kept popping up.

FREEDOM

CONFIDENCE

HAPPINESS

HEALTH

I'm now working on my beliefs, and aligning my identity with my behaviour. So interesting!!! And when you work through it it makes so much sense.

For the next couple of weeks, I'm on holidays, spending some time in Dunedin with my family and my best friend who had a baby (Otis) a couple of weeks ago. What a cutie he is :) My husband and I have adopted a friend's cat while she does her OE overseas (rescued it from the SPCA). Interesting dynamics with Honey the pup. Anthony is positive they will be friends...we'll see!

Till next time....hopefully not as long between posts.

The Verdict

I got my results from the doctors:

Looks like although not a completely classic case, I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome.

Not classic, as my testosterone levels were normal for a female. But LH and FSH were all out of whack - hence not being able to get pregnant.

On the plus side, Im not diabetic, my liver, kidney and cholesterol were all good. The latter reading showed that I was eating healthier and exercising. It too would be high if I was not. My thyroid was a little underactive, but not alarmingly.

Still digesting the news, a lot to take in, a lot of tears. Have started on a medication, and while I thought I could wean myself off my antidepressants - Im just not that strong, so am back on them.

I have a referral to an endocrinologist to assess further. Its the public system so who knows when that will be.

So its a reason I struggle to lose weight - not an excuse. For now Im just trying to take it all in, and it becomes more important for me to try and lose weight as that will help. Although PCOS is not solely caused by being overweight. I also learnt that fat is now known to secrete hormones like oestrogen, and apparently my fat is not mobile (I can see that just by looking in the mirror!).

I would like to say I have the most supportive husband and parents. My husband has been especially amazing. I now realise the true meaning of our wedding vows, and how special they really are.

Bits and Bobs

A whirlwind time....I need to update.

On the weight loss, while this is the focus of my blog, it has taken a little of a backseat. Not that Im not exercising or trying to eat well, I just have other priorities at the moment. Subsequently I havent been to WW for two weeks. I will go this week, I promise!

What else has been going on...

Well after being told I may not be able to have children, I tried to be positive and think everything was ok. I went to the doctor and have had blood tests done. No results as yet, but they seem to think from my symptoms - it may be Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. There are treatments but no complete cure. Being me, I did a lot of research, but am in limbo until tomorrow when I get the results. I have cried a lot realising Im not going to handle it well, lost my cool a number of times (including at the blood clinic when they said I had fasted too long and needed to come back on Monday....yeah not pretty)...Poor Anthony....he has been so supportive.
Anyway, cant do anything until the results come back.

Ive now been to three sessions of NLP (Neuro Linguistic Programming), to reframe my mind, thoughts and behaviours on food. I have got a lot out of it. Some of the thoughts Ive had have completely slanted how I look at food and myself. Hard to explain, but look at how I see myself now and where I want to be, how I will look and feel and what will it take to get there. Visualisation is a key to this and when used last week, it was so vivid, and brought even a smile to my face when I could see me and my best friend Fran trying clothes on in Max - being similar size (when she isnt pregnant ;) ) and loving it. I also saw myself pregnant surprisingly it was at school. Positive, something I need right now. Tonight, it was focussed on how I saw food now and how I want to see food in the future.

I said I wanted to see food as a fuel, then modified it into seeing quality food (with good choices)as an energy source. With energy it allowed me to want to exercise more, stress less, and cope better. Plus again it may increase my reproductive fitness and make me smaller. This is a brief summary - each session is 90 minutes so a lot more goes on.

My biggest realisation - Fat does not taste good....why have I thought this for years??? I've never eaten lard or fat. Fat is not linked to flavour.....can't believe I had this assumption in my head. I guess its part of the process.

Anyway bootcamp intermediate starts tomorrow morning at 6am - inside and undercover this time - who knows what this will bring???

Where's the wagon...I need to get back on!

Been a couple of weeks since the last entry. Had a few situations over the last fortnight that have been straining emotionally, but now Im ready to get back on track.

I am an emotional eater. Having found out recently I may not be able to have children has been a big blow - not that we wanted them right now, but to have the option ripped away from you has been fairly traumatic for me - has affected me more than I thought. I dont really want to go into details here, but hopefully the prognosis may change in time.

So since boot camp, Ive been out for a few rather nice dinners, have lapsed a little on exercise,and have enjoyed a few glasses of vino at various do's. I've also put work and my uni paper ahead of me - poor time managment. My family dog (parents) also passed on after a long life of 13 years. Sad. Today at WW, it showed up as gaining 700g (1.5lbs) over two weeks :( so now weight loss is down to 13.5kilos, still guess it is a loss.

So from here...

Get back on the exercise wagon, watch what I eat and make healthier choices, and cut down on the wine....it quickly adds on the kilos...not really worth it.

I'm also trying neural lingusitic programming with a therapist to change my way of thought about food etc. His programme is called "Get the fat out of your head" and over 12 sessions, it aims to resort and retrain my head space to be more aware and make better choices, and also work on my self image. I have nothing to lose. Will update how this goes, but before my first session on Tuesday I have a fair bit of reading to do!

Next stage of boot camp starts in about 2.5 weeks, which will be good (in the end ;) ).

Ok, not the most motivating of entries, but achieving a new life style is a roller coaster...you just got to ride it! If you don't make mistakes, how can you learn.

Lets hope for better next time.

Boot Camp completed!

And the results from the four weeks of fitness at the crack of dawn.....

Lost 2.5 kilos over the time.

Lost cm's everywhere (wicked)

Feel more toned - can even feel muscle now :)

Feel fitter - even doing the odd jogs now!

This week I have had a few people comment - non relations! That's nice as many of them don't know Im actively trying to lose weight etc.

So all together:

Total weight loss = 14.2 kilos (31.2lbs)

The next boot camp (intermediate) starts in 3 weeks - have a programme so I don't lose what I have gained in fitness to do over the time.

One thing I will look forward to is not getting up at 530am for the next 3 weeks :)

Tips for sleeping better

Just a small post.

For someone who frequently suffers from insomnia, I came across a link that has 100 different ways to get some decent sleep.


http://www.prevention.com/100waystosleep/?cm_mmc=Spotlight-_-04272009-_-Health-_-100%20Ways%20To%20Sleep%20Better


Some are worth a try....who knows....they might work! :)

Pulling cars

Three weeks down of boot camp...one to go!

I actually pulled a car (a family stationwagon) this morning with rope by myself!!!! (Not like the dog above). Pulled it about a distance of 40-50 metres. I feel strong right now...kills the legs though!

Come to think of it...this mornings session was really orientated around the car. We had a carry tyres in many fashions - running with it above our head, squatting with it, linking it to another person, commando crawl with it, do lunges with them.

I actually do not know why my trainer has so many tyres...but now I don't really like them much!

Is the recession good for the waist line??

Tighten Your Belt, Strengthen Your Mind

'Consistently doing any activity that requires self-control seems to increase willpower — and the ability to delay gratification is highly associated with success in life.'
By SANDRA AAMODT and SAM WANG
Published: April 2, 2008
DECLINING house prices, rising job layoffs, skyrocketing oil costs and a major credit crunch have brought consumer confidence to its lowest point in five years. With a relatively long recession looking increasingly likely, many American families may be planning to tighten their belts.

Interestingly, restraining our consumer spending, in the short term, may cause us to actually loosen the belts around our waists. What’s the connection? The brain has a limited capacity for self-regulation, so exerting willpower in one area often leads to backsliding in others. The good news, however, is that practice increases willpower capacity, so that in the long run, buying less now may improve our ability to achieve future goals — like losing those 10 pounds we gained when we weren’t out shopping.

The brain’s store of willpower is depleted when people control their thoughts, feelings or impulses, or when they modify their behavior in pursuit of goals. Psychologist Roy Baumeister and others have found that people who successfully accomplish one task requiring self-control are less persistent on a second, seemingly unrelated task.

In one pioneering study, some people were asked to eat radishes while others received freshly baked chocolate chip cookies before trying to solve an impossible puzzle. The radish-eaters abandoned the puzzle in eight minutes on average, working less than half as long as people who got cookies or those who were excused from eating radishes. Similarly, people who were asked to circle every “e” on a page of text then showed less persistence in watching a video of an unchanging table and wall.

Other activities that deplete willpower include resisting food or drink, suppressing emotional responses, restraining aggressive or sexual impulses, taking exams and trying to impress someone. Task persistence is also reduced when people are stressed or tired from exertion or lack of sleep.

What limits willpower? Some have suggested that it is blood sugar, which brain cells use as their main energy source and cannot do without for even a few minutes. Most cognitive functions are unaffected by minor blood sugar fluctuations over the course of a day, but planning and self-control are sensitive to such small changes. Exerting self-control lowers blood sugar, which reduces the capacity for further self-control. People who drink a glass of lemonade between completing one task requiring self-control and beginning a second one perform equally well on both tasks, while people who drink sugarless diet lemonade make more errors on the second task than on the first. Foods that persistently elevate blood sugar, like those containing protein or complex carbohydrates, might enhance willpower for longer periods.

In the short term, you should spend your limited willpower budget wisely. For example, if you do not want to drink too much at a party, then on the way to the festivities, you should not deplete your willpower by window shopping for items you cannot afford. Taking an alternative route to avoid passing the store would be a better strategy.

On the other hand, if you need to study for a big exam, it might be smart to let the housecleaning slide to conserve your willpower for the more important job. Similarly, it can be counterproductive to work toward multiple goals at the same time if your willpower cannot cover all the efforts that are required. Concentrating your effort on one or at most a few goals at a time increases the odds of success.

Focusing on success is important because willpower can grow in the long term. Like a muscle, willpower seems to become stronger with use. The idea of exercising willpower is seen in military boot camp, where recruits are trained to overcome one challenge after another.
In psychological studies, even something as simple as using your nondominant hand to brush your teeth for two weeks can increase willpower capacity. People who stick to an exercise program for two months report reducing their impulsive spending, junk food intake, alcohol use and smoking. They also study more, watch less television and do more housework. Other forms of willpower training, like money-management classes, work as well.

No one knows why willpower can grow with practice but it must reflect some biological change in the brain. Perhaps neurons in the frontal cortex, which is responsible for planning behavior, or in the anterior cingulate cortex, which is associated with cognitive control, use blood sugar more efficiently after repeated challenges. Or maybe one of the chemical messengers that neurons use to communicate with one another is produced in larger quantities after it has been used up repeatedly, thereby improving the brain’s willpower capacity.

Whatever the explanation, consistently doing any activity that requires self-control seems to increase willpower — and the ability to resist impulses and delay gratification is highly associated with success in life.

One week of Boot Camp down....

A small loss this week...just 500g, but thats still a block of butter.

So in total the loss is 12.2kilos or 26.8lbs.

The WW seemed surprised I had lost considering it was Easter. I simply replied...you have no idea how hard I have worked out this week!

So from the weight loss I move on to Boot Camp.....or my (sometimes) version of what I think hell is like.

Day 1

The initial weigh in, rules and what we can expect to achieve from the month long programme.

A run warm up, I manage half the run before puffing hard out. Various exercises and running, running and more running. Up stairs, down the Normandale Hill road. I try my hardest but it was a lot of walking as well.

We get introduced to the various exercises we are going to do, and the techniques. Squats, crunches, press ups, and burpies (which I just have no knack for!), step ups amongst a couple of others.

There are various things such as a variation of what I remember of Duck Duck goose or parachute where when your number is called you have to run into the middle, complete a set of an exercise and then run out.

And then it happened - we got told the last team to get to the chair would run up the Normandale Hill - I'm thinking I have to go hard out - don't let the team down (I am the slowest one there). So on go, I take off like a rocket and before I knew it, I'm tripping and rolling and hit my knee on the concrete.

By then - I've hit my wall - I burst out crying and apologising to the team. How embarrassing! I actually injure myself as well which makes it worse, and spend the next ten minutes on the concrete before trying to walk it off while unfortunately my team ran up the hill.

The rest of the day, I had an ice pack on my knee and was hobbling...great start.

Day 2

On the Tuesday I went for a session with my trainer. As long as I didn't put weight on my knee, I was generally ok. He took me through a modified shuttle run/exercise boot camp to complete while I am away in Dunedin for 6 days. I'm bummed I am going to miss the camp as I already feel on the back foot. I'm the slowest, the biggest, and one of the most unfit. I explained this to my trainer, and he simply explained that everyone is there for their own reasons. Goals are individual. Anyway I need to remember that, and so on to day 2 - Wednesday.

Wednesday was split between the river bank and Normandale park. Shuttle run/ exercises and more running/walking. We got t-shirts for boot camp - nice. I felt good to do more running, however overdoing it made me dizzy, so am working out the limits when I can still run/jog but also perform the best I can. Even had tyre running in this session! It was good, and although wasted, it was a good type of wasted.

Day 3

I missed the morning session due to a migraine - I'm thinking from not sleeping and the end of term. So I slept through the morning and in the afternoon when it was better, I completed the combo set for me to do when I was away on the river bank. Anthony kept me in line and I actually surprised myself by having the determination to complete it. That feeling of finishing was awesome.

Day 4

Easter Monday up at 530am and off to Avalon Park. Warm up was running which I completed, and then almost threw up. From there did more running although I did fast walking as Im sure the previous days Easter festivities with some chocolate eggs did me no favours in the feeling sick area. NO MORE CHOCOLATE - It just is not worth it!

Did a circuit around the playground incorporating exercise and running. My favourite part - after running to the slide - going down it! Weeeee. It did remind me a little of the Krypton Factor which I watched when I was little.

Was stuffed afterwards, however at least with a public holiday I could have a nap later on.

Wednesday will be a half session as I have an early plane to catch to Dunedin to see my family for a few days, however will have a training session if I can tomorrow.

Who would have thought I would actually want to exercise???

Something you probably don't want to read after Easter....

The worst Easter candy

With the sweetest of all holidays upon us, sugar will be on the brain this weekend, threatening to rot your teeth and widen your waist. When you OD on candy, your pancreas has to work overtime—it pumps out massive amounts of insulin, causing the body to build up a resistance to sugar. Translation: The more sweets you eat, the more you need to feel satisfied.

AVOID THESE EASTER CANDIES

Worst Calorie Offenders:
Cadbury Cream Eggs – 140 calories
Reese's Peanut Butter Eggs – 180 calories

Worst Sugar Offenders:
Jelly Belly Assorted jelly beans (35) – 28 g sugar
(Small) Cadbury Chocolate Eggs (12) – 26 g sugar

Worst Fat Offenders:
Nestle's Crunch Solid Chocolate Easter Bunny – 36.2 g of fat
Reese's Reester Bunny – 42 g of fat

The Worst Easter Candy:
Hershey's Hollow Milk Chocolate EggThis hollow egg is a tricky one--just the shell hides a shocking 570 calories. Eat the four Hershey’s kisses inside and you’ll hit 660 calories and 41 grams of fat.


Leave this egg and it’s diet-destroying agenda out of your basket and scramble up a plate of healthy, real eggs, instead!

Not-so-sweet sugar facts:

If overdosing on calories is what worries you, reaching for a Diet Pepsi isn't the solution: Artificial sweeteners may be almost as bad for you as high fructose corn syrup. In 2004, a study published in the International Journal of Obesity found that rats ate more after consuming an artificially sweetened drink than they did after sipping sugar water. Researchers say that might be because calorie-free artificial sweeteners act like stomach teasers: As you down your diet soda, your body anticipates the calories. When they don't arrive, your body sends you looking elsewhere for them, often in a snack bowl. And get this: A 2005 study by researchers from the University of Texas found that people who drank a can of diet soda per day had a 37 percent greater incidence of obesity.


Healthy replacement treats:

Apples:
A 2003 Brazilian study found that three apples a day can keep weight gain at bay--and can even help you lose. "There's no magic compound," according to Rui Hai Liu, Ph.D., an apple researcher at Cornell University. "The best way to lose weight is to increase consumption of fruits and vegetables. That increases volume and decreases calorie density." If you've got 5 minutes and a knife, cut your apple up and mix it with some chopped walnuts and a teaspoon or two of maple syrup. Or eat it with a tablespoon of peanut butter to add about 100 calories' worth of the satiating power of nuts.

Frozen juice bars:
Unwrap a frozen juice bar and you can practically hear the ice cream truck rounding the corner of your cul-de-sac. "They're sweet and tangy, and anything frozen takes longer to eat," Gidus says. "They're just a few calories, and they've even got some vitamins."Our favorite: Edy's Tangerine, with flavor as bright as its color — and a mere 80 calories.

Licorice:
Decio Armanini, M.D., who did the research at Italy's University of Padua, explains that there are two ways licorice works. The first is complicated and involves blocking an enzyme that plays a role in fat accumulation. The second is simpler. "Licorice can reduce appetite," he says. "The effect is probably related to the agreeable taste of licorice, and for that reason people do not need to eat more." We're not talking Twizzlers here; go for the real thing, preferably with licorice extract high on its ingredient list. (Look for it in grocery stores, not convenience stores.) A handful is about 150 calories and will keep you busy chewing something sweet, flavorful, and satisfying for twice the time it takes to down a bag of M&Ms.


And if you must have chocolate: Try Hershey's All Natural Extra Dark Pure Dark Chocolate with 60% Cacao. They're individually wrapped 45-calorie squares so you won't go off the chocolaty deep end. Plus, cocoa can lower blood pressure, reduce the risk of heart attack, stroke, diabetes, and possibly even prevent cancer. But be sure to stick to the dark chocolate -- it retains more of the bean during processing and generally has slightly less fat than the milkier version.


Interesting reading...trust me to have cream eggs as my favourite though! At least I like apples and licorice :)

Back to WW!

Made to WW this week - up and atom on a Saturday morning. Made easier by a lovely day outside.

Pleasantly surprised, and good losses by both me and hubby.

Hubby lost 2.4kilos making a total of 7.9 kilos lost.

I lost 1.3 (2.9lbs) kilos to total 11.7kilos (25.7lbs). Yay!


How do I feel after losing this much?

More energy would be the main thing. I'm still tired (since it is now the last week of term) but its different now. I've booked in with consultant about the hyponotherapy on the 22nd April, so that should be interesting. My mindset has changed a little. I don't craved chocolate anymore and Im more wary of what I eat. I chose to not drink last night with friends - opting for lite and non alcholic beverages. I still had a blast and no hangover today. I can't guarantee that will always occur but for now I feel good about it. There was also the fear of not being on my A game for boot camp which starts tomorrow morning....6AM!

Other thing - clothes are looser. I took measurements yesterday, and while the initial drop was around my waist, this time there was quite a drop in my bust (hubby not that happy about that one ;) ) There were losses (even if small) everywhere which was positive.

Last week of school - hanging out for the holidays!

Mid week bite

A webite my brother found - not so serious

http://thisiswhyyourefat.com/

One way to put you off your food!

5 days until bootcamp!

Just had two days of personal training (normally one or two per week but not in a row). Im a tad sore, but it's good sore. Even did shuttle runs - I hate the thought of running, and today there was a lot of puffing. However I was impressed with my recovery. Must be getting fitter! Yay :)

My trainer has referred me to a lady who thinks I will be a good candidate for some sort of mental training calling the programme "Get the fat out of your head" I am skeptical, however it is a free consulation so what the hell?? Updates as they come to hand on that one.

Slept in!

What a doofus! I never made it to WW this week as I slept in, waking up long after the meeting ended....may have had something to do with the disjointed sleep I had when my husband wondered in from his leaving drinks at 4am.

Anyway, a bit of a struggle getting back into it last week after basically a week of indulgence. Managed walks, had one training session in which I worked out with Fish who had her six month old baby Charlotte with her. While exercise was done, there was also a lot of chatting, giggling and cooing at the baby especially when she started sucking the boxing glove - too cute!!! From that I figured out why I work out on my own. I remember previous gyms sessions with other friends where gossiping was key and also a lot of time in the sauna (maybe not all bad, but not exactly productive!)

Anyway...I signed up for BOOT CAMP. Starts next Monday 6AM! Monday, Wednesday and Fridays for 4 weeks - IM SCARED! I think that sums that up - more details as it gets started. I'm hoping for some decent results, and my trainer said I would not be the most soft person there - here's hoping. I think that is my worst fear - like being picked last for a team or being the last one on a tramp by miles. Hmmmm.

My clothes continue to feel a bit looser. I put on a skirt today, and there was a major gap between my tummy and the skirt and it wasnt even an elasticated skirt! Choice!

My best moment of the week was on Saturday night when out with friends, I had Chicken breast for dinner and took off the crispy skin and left it. People noticed this and couldn't understand. I just could not eat it. Yet Sam had no problems taking it from me - I like that - out of sight out of mind. Kate said I was now in the "zone" Well I hope I stay there!

Less than two weeks till holidays.....cannot wait!

No weigh in this week....birthday time :)

This week - no weigh in.

It was my birthday week, so indulgence was the way - not over the top but a few good drinks, a few dinners out and birthday cake were consumed.

So tomorrow - I start the process of working all that off!

Still a good week was had :)...although 31 now......the biological clock ticks away!


Until next week, have a good one!

10 kilos....gone!

I didn't know what to expect from this week. I caught the flu bug going around work - leaving me at home sick Monday and Tuesday and still not quite right at the moment.

However, still managed some exercise in - if only walking - its better than nothing.

I decided to take my measurements this week to see if even though I had gained some weight - maybe I had lost some size. I was pleasantly surprised! I had lost a little everywhere. YAY!

My clothes are a little looser - getting a little big on top and don't quite fit right now. No use buying new stuff right now as I want to be smaller! Its a good feeling. I put on some new 3/4 pants last night and they were fitting well - not pulling to get the zip and button up - good feeling!

Anyway, I went open minded to WW yesterday - after a fast paced walk with my trainer, and I had lost 1.8 kilos (4lbs) this week! AWESOME!

This took me to 10.4 kilos overall (22.9lbs). Because I had gone over the 10 kilo mark, I get another 5 kilo lost sticker :)

So a good week all in all (except being sick), and was proud of myself when going out for brunch - I got an omlette that was egg white only and without cheese (had other vege fillings). It was surprisingly nice.

Next week is my birthday so I may be a little indulgent ;)

Another gain...what the???

I gained 400g in this weeks weigh in. This time Im really upset about it, as I've been eating well and exercising this week. The leader at WW did say sometimes it takes a couple of weeks to show up on the scales. In that case...is the 400g I put on still a residual of my blowout weekend a couple of weeks ago???

I will definitely not drink and eat like that all in one night..the reprecusions are not worth it.

Anthony stayed the same weight this week. Being the great husband he is, I almost cried after weigh in and he gave me a huge hug. It is demoralising! Im now back under the 9 kilo mark - down to 8.6 kilos lost. A here I thought I was on the doorstep of 10kilos.

Perserverance, determination..I have to keep going!


A huge walk today though - from home up to Melling bridge and back - 5.75km (around 3.5 miles) . I feel good after it.

My workout with Clayton was a killer yesterday....lots of squats, shoulder presses, and lat pull downs - with short pulses....screams were made...my butt is very sore today....all for the greater good though. I had a boxing workout on Thursday..it was awesome!

Here's to a good week - with hopefully a change in the right direction!

The first gain

I put on 200 grams this week...gutted.

Surprisingly Im ok with this. Last weekend, I had a blow out - a lot of alcohol, indulged in some cheezels, a kebab at 2am and had a kick ass time. I havent't drunk like that for a long time, I just needed release. A few friends I work with arent enjoying the year as much as last year, and it was a good way to get rid of frustrations etc.

I don't do this every day - so this week was a bump in the road.

How am I getting back on track - Im going back to the fast start programme (22 points) for a week, and doing more exercise.

The ol' ankle/tendon and very tight muscles prevented me from working out on Monday and Tuesday. At my trainer on Wednesday - it was a strict upper body workout. Better than nothing right?

This week Ive also started taking girth measurements too to assess downsizing in other ways. Some of my clothes are looser. I can feel a little more muscle in my legs (nicer than fat wobbles!)

So for now - Ive still lost 9 kilos. This week I want to get those 200g back and a bit more.

Heres hoping!!!

A big loss this week!

I just returned from WW - surprisingly I lost 2.8 kilos this week! YAY!

This week : lost 2.8 kilos, that is 6.2 lbs

Total loss: 9.2 kilos, that is 20.2 lbs


Im stoked! Clothes are definitely starting to feel a little looser now :)

Let it continue

Mr Sandman where are you??

Haven't been for my weigh in this week yet - had a anthropology lecture tonight so will go to WW tomorrow night.

I havent had the best week. I haven't really over indulged except for an ice cream, some movie popcorn and burger king on Saturday but that may be enough.

After the 5th week - I am really tired. Working out in some way 6 days a week is making my body a bit painful and achy. Teaching all day and working at night does not aid the cause. To top it all off Im not sleeping well at all - have not pin pointed the reason. Unfortunately, I fell asleep at the wrong time yesterday when I was meant to go to my trainer! I am struggling!

On the plus side, my walking pace has increased, and I am feeling fitter. Walked up the stairs at the war memorial today and was OK! Yay :)

A link I just found on ways to cut calories.

http://www.prevention.com/100calories/?cm_mmc=Spotlight-_-02182009-_-Weight%20Loss-_-100%20Ways%20to%20Cut%20100%20Calories

I just want some sleep!

Weigh in # 4

Had the weekly weigh in tonight:

Lost 600g = 1.3lbs

Total lost so far = 6.4kilos = 14.1lbs

I was glad I lost more than last week. The leader said that any big efforts or exercise will usually take a week to appear as weight loss. Im hoping that big walk may shift a little more weight.

It was suggested to take our measurements too so to see our loss in different ways. She has a point.

To the $2 shop for a tape measure!

A compliment!

I got a compliment from a co worker today! They do know I am on WW, however Steve and Michelle said I was looking slimmer (then he said it might be my clothes??). But yay, something more visible must be happening!! I cannot honestly tell except that a pair of black 3/4 pants I have fit nicer now. So thats good!

Yay!

Weigh in tomorrow....Im not so confident on a loss this week.

But ankle is almost healed, managed back to a half hour beach walk tonight :)

Im actually finding I crave at least a walk a day now....thats a good sign.

A few days have passed since my last entry...there wasn't a lot to say.

While I still lost this week, it was only 300g. Thats .7lbs.


So total weight loss so far: 5.8kg or 12.8 lbs

I know I should be pleased it is a loss, but I was disappointed it was so small. Still a loss is a loss.

On Friday Anthony and I went for a 3 hour walk on the Korokoro dam loop. Estimated at about 7-8 kilometres with a gentle incline to the dam. It was a great walk. I didnt struggle with fitness, however due to the width of the track (old goat track) I've ended up rolling my ankle. At the end it was a struggle to walk, and afterwards it was just painful. New shoes required I am thinking as my present ones are worn and possibly not the most supportive.

So from that...Saturday could barely walk so it was rest. We had a wedding in the afternoon. I went off track and ate many things I possibly should not have....but they were so so good. I have to learn also that it is ok to let go once in a while but as long as you get back on track straight away, its ok. I did feel guilty but still lack that self control when there is so much glorious food around.

Today, ankle slightly better, managed a small walk on the beach. Do more everyday until back to normal.

How frustrating!!!!!

I'm Exhausted!

Today I have decided on a day off. I was meant to go to my trainer today, however neither the mind or the body were willing. Since I am allowed one day off a week exercising - this is it!

I am keeping to my points, and still recording everything I am eating. That is good. I think (?) some of my pants are a little less snug, but it could all be psychological, who knows.

When I am tired like this, I feel hungry a lot more. I think my mind relates food to having more energy so I eat more. This does not neccessarily happen all the time.

Starting back at work has wasted me. Once I get used to it, it will be fine. I hope I am not losing my intial enthusiasm, however the tiredness doesnt help!

I found an article to inspire me to keep going. See below:

KEEPING GOALS TOP OF MIND

Ingrid Bergman once said, “Happiness is good health and a bad memory.” But without a good memory, good health may not even be possible.

You’ve got a lifestyle with its own routine, a regular way of doing things. Part of you is comfortable with it. Any change to that status quo and those routines, no matter how small, takes mental alertness. If your new goals and new habits aren’t kept top of mind, you can sink back into those old routines without even realizing it.

It’s easy to be focused in the first couple of weeks. It’s also easy to get distracted or discouraged before your new healthy habits take root. Some days in your dieting future, it’ll be tough. You’ll search desperately for a single reason to close the fridge, a good excuse to lace up those gym shoes. Just something – anything – to get you through the day with your diet and confidence intact.

If you could just bottle up that “first two weeks” freshness, enthusiasm and momentum, and take a swig from that magical bottle whenever you wanted, the temptation to give in or forget wouldn’t be a problem. You can do the next best thing by regularly reminding yourself of what you need to do and why.

THINGS TO DO

Your goals are competing for brain space with phone numbers, sports scores, secretaries' names, favorite songs, kids' birthdays and bad jokes. And your goals don't always win out.

To stay consistent long enough to become a creature of healthy habits, surround yourself with visual, written and well-placed reminders that steady the course and help you refocus. Use positive images and words. Find a visual that shows why you want to lose weight in the first place, or what you’ll be doing with your weight loss. A picture of your kids, the new dress you want to wear, a basketball.

Every day is a chance to build momentum or to slack. Every day, you have to decide to make the right choices. Keeping your goals and motivators close by helps you make that decision and feel good about it. Remember, this is a positive experience! You’re doing something good for yourself, your loved ones and your future. Don’t waste any opportunity to remind yourself of that fact and congratulate yourself on progress.

100 Super Foods for a super you!

This is an all-inclusive list, but some foods might not be right for your tastes, preferences or health goals. Remember that no single food can provide everything you need to be healthy. That's why it's important to choose a variety of super foods from each category to meet your daily nutrition needs.

Vegetables

AsparagusAvocadosBeetsBell peppersBroccoliBrussels sproutsCabbageCarrots Cauliflower Collard greensCrimini mushroomsCucumbersEggplantGarlicGreen beansKaleMustard greensOnionsPeasPortobello mushroomsPotatoesRainbow chardRomaine lettuceShiitake mushroomsSpinachSummer squashSweet potatoesSwiss chardTomatoesTurnip greensWinter squashYams

Calcium-Rich Foods

Almond milkCheese, low fatCottage cheese, low fatMilk, skim or 1%Orange juice with calcium Rice milkSoy milkYogurt with active cultures, low fat

Fruits

ApplesApricotsBananasBlackolivesBlackberriesBlueberriesCantaloupeCherriesCranberriesFigsGrapefruitGrapesHoneydew melonKiwifruitLemonsLimesNectarinesOrangesPapayaPeachesPearsPineapplePlumsPrunesRaisinsRaspberriesStrawberriesWatermelon


Grains

AmaranthArborio riceBarleyBrown riceBuckwheatBulgurCorn Jasmine Millet Oats Quinoa RyeSpeltTriticaleWheat berriesWhole grain breads, cereal, pastaWhole wheat breads, cereal, pastaWild Rice

Proteins

AlmondsBeef, leanBlack beansCashewsChicken, skinlessChickpeasEgg whitesEggsFish, unbreaded FlaxseedGarbanzo beansHemp seedsHummusKidney beansLima beans LentilsMisoNavy beansNutsPeanut butter, naturalPeanutsPinto beansPork, leanPumpkin seedsSalmon, canned or freshSeafood, unbreadedSesame seedsSoybeansSunflower seedsTahiniTempehTofuTuna, canned or freshTurkey, skinlessVeggie burgersWalnutsWild game, skinless

Miscellaneous

Canola oilDark chocolateGreen teaOlive oil

Preparing for weight loss

An article from Spark people on setting yourself up for the future...when the weight loss has occurred.


Millions of people hope to lose weight. Only a few actually prepare for it. They treat it like a treasure hunt, setting off on a quest and hoping it’ll all work out. No wonder the dieting failure rate hovers near 95%. Any time you’ve reached a meaningful goal, it was because you were ready for it. It didn’t just happen or fall in your lap. If it did, that’s more good fortune than goal achievement. The difference between hoping something will happen and making it happen is preparation. Not too many people lose weight through luck or good fortune, so you’ll probably have to rely on preparation. How do you create an environment that’s more help than hurt?

Prevent Temptations
Promote Convenience
Purchase Wisely

Here are some strategies you can start right now to be more prepared:

Prevent Temptations

Start in the kitchen. Begin replacing unhealthy foods with healthier alternatives. Do a full kitchen healthy inspection. Setting up shop now will keep you from giving in to temptation later.
Take lunch and healthy snacks to work. When the munchies come calling, you won’t need to run to the vending machine.
Eat a snack before leaving to eat out. You’ll be less hungry and less apt to order a gooey appetizer.
Eat breakfast. A growling stomach is just asking for snacking trouble.

Promote Convenience

Pack a gym bag and keep it in your car for use on a moment’s notice.
Leave healthy snacks throughout your house, your office and even your car.
When you do cook, make a double batch and store some for later.

Purchase Wisely

No need for a trendy, expensive membership if the local gym has what you’ll actually use.
The most important piece of fitness equipment you’ll have is a good, comfortable pair of gym or running shoes. Make sure you have the right pair.
Big equipment purchases aren’t needed right now. Start with some home gym basics (exercise ball, resistance bands, small medicine ball, jump rope, small dumbbells) and build as time goes.
Get one water bottle or water cup for home and one for work.

It's February!

Its February already!

Students start leaking back into school tomorrow...Im in two minds. I'm looking forward to seeing them, but would prefer another week before actually starting to teach them. Anyway, the week is only 4 days and only two of them are teaching days, so its not too bad.

The weekend was productive - got three lots of exercise in..yay!

Had a PT session on Saturday morning - lots of strength training. Did these sets of dead lifts with bar bells. I understand the name. Lots of squats too...I feel the effect of those!

I feel Ive done pretty well with my eating habits - no junk! At a BBQ last night - I had lots of salad, vege kebabs, and two pieces of meat. I'm somewhat limiting my alcohol as two points per glass of wine can add up. Just one glass for a taste is working at the moment :)

The nicest thing about the BBQ is that Steve and Michelle both took into account Anthony and I were in WW and made sure everything was in a good points range. That was awesome!

Today we had a christening followed by lunch. Again went healthy. Didn't touch the yummy cheeses, the chips and even refused the gorgeous looking cake. There were also plenty of other options to eat that were healthier.

A couple of poochie walks made up the rest of my exercise. So far so good.

I actually think I might be getting slightly fitter :)

Goal setting

While I want to be smaller - I need to constantly remind myself why I am doing this - what are my goals? This is a useful tool to keep me focused.

3 reasons:

1) I want to lower my blood pressure (slightly higher than normal at the moment but I want it normal)

2) I would like to be able to buy clothes from the normal size section of womens clothing stores, and not be restricted to the plus size section.

3) My husband and I would like to start a family sooner rather than later. I need to be in good health, be in reasonable fitness, have hormones, blood pressure etc all in normal range to increase this chance.


My weight goals are not completely set at the moment. I want to do small achieveable weight goals in order to get to bigger higher weight loss.

A good swap which still tastes good is swapping ice cream for sorbet.

100ml vanilla icecream (approx 1 scoop) = 4 points and 100ml low fat sorbet = 2 points

I found today in the heat, I just needed something cool and refreshing - sorbet was it. 2 scoops from Wendys (they measure their quantities by weight) = 3 points - YUM!

You could avoid having a cone too! Save some more points :)

Another for the BBQ I learnt from my meeting is swapping 1 general sausage (=6) for 3 sizzler sausages (2 points each). Who knew? I thought sizzlers would be more.

I also got some tips for basic goal setting:


Smart Substitutions. Did you know that a serving of mayonnaise has 100 calories, while a serving of mustard only has 11? A few of these substitutions every day and you’ve got a great head start.

Combine Goals. Works especially well with social or family goals. See if there’s somebody who can join you for a walk, make a healthy dinner together, or start a community garden.

Think 10-15 Minutes. We’re all faced with little blocks of time throughout the day that could be put to better use. See how many you can fill up with short bursts of physical activity.

Plan Ahead. Every program could benefit from a little forethought. The SparkDiet meal planner is just one example. Something as important as your health deserves some concentration.

I think for me, one big important things in goal setting is organisation, and good time management!

Weigh in #2

Tonight its a short one.

Weigh in: lost 1.6 kilos - thats 3.5lbs

Total lost in 2 weeks: 5.5 kilos - thats 12.1lbs


Pretty chuffed!

Went out for our anniversary dinner and had lamb with veges (slightly gourmet) and sherbet with pineapple for dessert. Yum. I have calculated I also only went over my points by 3. Not bad since I havent been eating all my points in the last few days in preparation :)

Good day!

Back to School!

Like many children around the world, I too as a teacher struggle to go back to school. No more sleep ins, no more lazy days, hanging with mates, and have mid afternoon beach walks...well for a while anyway.

Back to school I went for admin purposes etc, the kids dont come back in until tomorrow initially for course confirmation, then Monday for school. Spent far longer than I wanted there, and didnt get lunch until nearly 4pm when I returned home. I was famished!

Getting home, I was pretty tired - amazing how tired you get when you use your brain for the first time in six weeks! Will be like that for the first week or so until into a routine.

Anyway, next phase of eating properly and coping with school again, and making the two exist in harmony so to speak. The key will be organisation I'm guessing though!

Had a good walk tonight with hubby and poochie up the river bank for 45 mins.

Second weigh in tomorrow...here's hoping for a loss!

Happy Anniversary Baby!

1 year ago today - I got married to my sweetie. Married life is great! I fully recommend it. Time has flown - alas the wieght didn't and invited its friends around.

However thats all changed this year!

I should really get a picture here to show me now, then and then another next year to show progress. Put onto the to do list.

Very hot here today - a beach walk with poochie was very hot - the water was refreshing! Even that was warm, and occasionally you could see the small fish around your feet, cool!

Ant's mum made us dinner for our anniversary - roast lamb, salad, and potato. I did not over do it, and now I remain with points in hand and didnt eat them all. This may aid Saturday when I ate more than I should have! It was tres bien! Even could have a couple of glasses of wine to celebrate too!

What a great day! Tomorrow, I go to school for the first time this year....holidays are over :(

Over the points.....damn going out for food!

A rather busy weekend. Possibly not my best weight loss weekend. I went over my points on Saturday...but all day I had been sooooo hungry. Why...I dont know. I had not eaten 5 from the day before.

I was doing okay until I went out to the pub, bet on the races and indulged in a lamb roast. It was very good, but hard to tell how some of the vegetables were cooked and there was gravy! The late night steak sandwiches didnt help either Im guessing either. More exercise to work that off.

Today I went to a BBQ and controlled myself, selecting small bits of meat, having salad, and only one roll. I have eaten my points today but no more.

I need to work on my going out eating skills.

My one year wedding anniversary tomorrow...wow one year. Off to the ma-in-laws for dinner - a lamb roast. I think this will involve limited low point eating during the day!

Day Off

A Day off exercising today...Im sore. My hands are sore from boxing yesterday.

Still good with the food. Didn't eat all my points - and even had a foot long sub (low fat of course), and it was good!

Not a lot to report on today - was chilled.

HOD called up to discuss school stuff...the holidays are near an end...boo!

'till tomorrow!

Boxing rules!

Another PT workout this morning. Was up and atom early and keen!

15mins on the cross trainer and a boxing session was hard out but awesome at the same time. Lots of cardio!

I also started on 31 points for food today. It was hard to get up to that many points although I will get used to it.

Gave blood also. Have to eat afterwards to avoid faintness etc. I declined the chocolate biscuits (YES!) and had only 2 crackers with cheese and marmite (approx 2 points for them both). I survived temptation. This could quite easily be my downfall, but I stood strong. Truth is, I didn't even want the chocolate biscuits. Good attitude!


Went out for lunch. Still find it easier to get a vege option. Today was zucchini and feta fritters (2) and a salad with a little lemon aioli - about 4 points. And truly yummy too!

Giving blood takes it toll after a while and didn't even feel better after another half hour walk with hubby and poochie. Good thing is I should sleep well tonight :)

Below is one of those inspirational stories from spark people. Sometimes its good to hear about success!

WOW, at 396 lbs I began in a water aerobics class. I was overwhelmed, and so out of shape that it was hard to do half of the class. I was winded by the time I had gotten out of my van and into the locker room. I had to rest before changing and getting into the pool.

WELL, things have changed a LOT since then. I have lost about 125 lbs.

MOST of this is due to continuing with water aerobics for the last year and a half. I have modified my eating and that also plays a huge part. I have increased water, and cut down on fats and sugars. I have not cut out anything at all. If I want chocolate, that is fine, but I limit myself to ONE hershey kiss, or ONE dove chocolate square, or 10 M&M's. If I want fries then I can have 10 fries. Just by seetting a limit and not letting myself mindlessly eat it makes a HUGE difference. Water, water, and more water seems to be a HUGE key to my success as well.

WELL, I was approached by the manager at the pool and told that I should begin thinking about becoming a water aerobics instructor substitute. I laughed it off and thought in another 100 lbs.

THEN, another instructor who is very persuasive, independently told me that I am ready, and my fitness level is much higher than I think it is. I was also told that I have the personality, energy, enthusiasm and passion it takes, that technique can be taught. I still was hesitant at my weight, but she talked me into coming to some land classes to prove to myself that I could do it. After line dancing all night New years, and doing a couple of aerobics classes on land, I realized I am WAY more ready than I thought.

SO after the manager of the pool pulled me aside on Saturday and told me she wants me registered for the state certification in March, and that she has Jury Duty in Feb and needs me covering I realized this was real, not just a blank offer. Tomorrow I will be turning in my application and filling out paperwork. To make this official. I am just so amazed at the changes life has brought me. I feel SO blessed.

SO my advice, is to keep working out. One day and one step at a time. You can and WILL become more fit, you will feel better, and you will lose weight.

Keep on track. Tina

A good inspirational journey!

The First Weigh In

Arrghhh the first week has come to a conclusion, and with that is the weigh in at the WW meeting. The worst part..waiting and waiting in the line, and wondering have I lost, have I gained???

For a first week effort at the Kick start points (22) - I lost 3.9 kilos (8.6lbs). That is almost 8 blocks of butter. Im pretty stoked.

Hubby lost 1.4 kilos too, which is awesome. Very proud.

From tomorrow, am up to 31 points. I won't know what to do with myself and all those points!

Desert tonight was watermelon...fresh and yum!

So Im feeling pretty good. I exercised twice today. Had a strenuous session with Claytonator - mostly strength training but also squats and step ups....I was puffing and sweating. Just not that fit. Just keep going! Plus also took poochie to the beach for a walk, and almost a swim when she wouldn't get out of the water!

So today, a good day :)

Weight Watchers is even on Facebook!

After signing into Facebook today, I thought I would do a search and what do you know...heaps of groups, discussion boards, recipes swaps and even an application to count your points from calories...sweet!

Did 50 minutes of walking today. 30 minutes at the beach walking with the poochie, and then a 20 minute walk around A town also with poochie. She didnt complain at all.

Had my first sweet indulgence and the best thing - 0 points! WW jelly - not as good as normal greggs stuff but still has the illusion of sweetness.

First weigh in tomorrow night, I really hope I have lost. I have to say I have been extremely good over the past week, and am quite proud of my efforts. Guess wait and see.

I'm still a little tired, but a little more energy than the past couple of days. My mood is fairly balanced, although holiday boredom has really set in.

Obama's inauguration tomorrow...a big day in history!

A Red Bull would be good right now!

Day 5:

Very tired today. At times had heaps of energy, then it just faded. I assume it's my body getting used to different food, and maybe lack of it.

I actually ate 3 points over today - not on purpose - just the chicken breast was bigger and more points than I thought. I also had some vita wheat crackers for a snack...oooo naughty me!

Will feel the benefit of more points I hope.

Had a BBQ tonight - is a very healthy way of cooking food - no fatty residue.

No exercise tonight as planned - had to deal with a break in next door, a richochet bottle hitting our place and my husband going of the handle at some teen without knowing the full story. I came to the conclusion, that teaching has made me a lot more reasonable in situations like those. While hubby went in with brut force, I found out without physical force what was actually going on. I do think however I got the same adrenalin rush from tonights events as from exercise.

Will make up for it tomorrow. Yes I will damnit!!!

Studies in wieght loss

Below is a link to show three studies that show trends in weight loss or gain

http://www.newsweek.com/id/144958/page/1

The second is an article on 6 "FAD" diets and what does not work and why.

http://www.newsweek.com/id/179599

And the third is an article about the seven worst ways to eat and why.

http://www.newsweek.com/id/32746?tid=relatedcl

All very interesting reading.

What I learn from this - keep a food diary, detox diets are a bit of bullshit (maybe short term like a few days ok, but not long term), I have too much access to snacks at work, and chew chew chew!

Sleep...I need sleep

Day 4:

Too hot at night - did not get to sleep until around 4am. Slept a few hours, then awake. Very tired!

Many a time I have eaten to give myself energy. In theory it should work, but rarely does.

Late breakfast and lunch - the later times left me less hungry. Drunk more fluids today.

Have also remembered that I can eat many vegetables without adding points. Must remember that in times of hunger. A raw carrot helped hunger tonight.

Ventured for takeouts tonight - a single kebab. No combo as I would have normally done - just a lonely kebab. I am a little scared of the thought of adding meat and the points consequence so opted for the mixed vegetable kebab - still was delicious.

However I made the mistake of assuming tahini was all good. However after now checking with hubby and wikipedia - I now know it is seseme paste and added 2 points to my daily total - gutted. I have become precious about my points!

Exercise was a half hour walk to the ma in laws with hubby and poochie. Decent walk, although due to late night and rain it was a ride back..next time.

Am also tracking my weight and other goals at: http://www.sparkpeople.com

Here you can get recipes, join discussion groups, set goals, etc - heaps of stuff. And its FREE to join!

The Personal Trainer

Day 3

Met with Clayton my long serving Personal Trainer today to discuss goals. While it is not the first time I have done this with him, I felt a lot more motivated about it today. Firstly I also said that I would not be into any fad thing as have tried with him in the past such as pills, powders, shakes etc (those experiences will be blogged about at a later date).

Showed him the WW outline - he is skeptical and can tell he doesnt like the points system and wants to know the equivalent kJ or calorie rating - just to get an idea on how many points = how many calories.

So the goal - 6 months - lose 17 kilos - to be done by July 17th 2009. Doable - yes as long as the average weight loss per week is approx 650 grams.

Keeping motivated is the key! Will be tough love from Clayton - no bullshit - basically what I respond to best I guess.

Went for the first walk of the programme today with poochie - was good - and with the temperatures as they are got a bit of sweat going on. All good.

Eating points was easier today - even had freshly caught fish (courtesy of hubby's hunter gathering skills). A lot of veges eaten. Still a bit hungry at the end of it all though.

Drank an extra glass of water - hot weather helps!

Breakfast actually is the most important meal of the day!

Day 2 and I feel better today.

I had breakfast - made such a difference. I had energy!

For the first week to kick start the diet I eat/drink only 22 points per day. I must admit, I was hungry when I went to bed, but its only for a week, then back to 32.

I need to control my hunger better - eat more vegetables during the day to curb it.

Good point: Went to the movies - had a trim mocha and a diet coke - no popcorn - lighthouse Petone is actually a popcorn free zone - WW friendly cinema for me :)

Bad point - need to have a trim mocha as a treat, and not drink caffeine after dinner - this equals little sleep.

In the beginning....

Today is the first day of the rest of your life.

This a saying I have heard many times in my own life. However, now today is the day I have nominated for a permanent change. I need to lose weight.

A brief history...

I am almost 31 years old.

I have never known life as a person who is of average weight.

I was even born heavy (9lb)

My weight and size could be said to be linked to some of the problems I have had in my life.

However, even though I have been of a more rubenesque size all of my life, I am not miserable for it. I am not socially inept, I do exercise, could possibly do more sport, am married to a wonderful man, had a good childhood, great family and friends and have been successful in my career thus far.

I have tried many diets/fads/exercise regimes over the years. I have had the most success with weight watchers. When preparing for my wedding two years ago, I joined. I lost 20 kilos. It was awesome! And, yes I did feel better for it.

But then I got married at the beginning of 2008, and I had the happy newly married year. I went awry - ate what I wanted, when I wanted and ceased to care much. My health went to the crapper once again, blood pressure rose, had more issues with my mild bipolar condition and became more miserable. No ones fault, but mine.

2009 - Its not a new years resolution. It is a life change. Last night, my husband and I joined and rejoined WW.

The weigh in proved what I had kind of thought - I had put those 20 kilos I had lost back on, but luckily no more.

Today is Day: 1

In the first week of the points plan - to get a quick start to the weight loss I am allowed 22 points a day. Next week I will be on 32 (as worked out by a quiz I had to fill out according to age/weight/gender/activity and a couple of other things).

Watching what you eat and logging it makes you so much more aware of what is going into my mouth. I skipped breakfast - not good. Breakfast is very important, and by lunch I was starving!

I managed my 22 points for today.

I need to drink more, especially water!

Too tired to exercise today.

Completed a healthy shop with husband - proud of efforts. Lots of variety.

Intentions are good and motivation is strong! Yay Me!