Saturday, May 16, 2009

Where's the wagon...I need to get back on!

Been a couple of weeks since the last entry. Had a few situations over the last fortnight that have been straining emotionally, but now Im ready to get back on track.

I am an emotional eater. Having found out recently I may not be able to have children has been a big blow - not that we wanted them right now, but to have the option ripped away from you has been fairly traumatic for me - has affected me more than I thought. I dont really want to go into details here, but hopefully the prognosis may change in time.

So since boot camp, Ive been out for a few rather nice dinners, have lapsed a little on exercise,and have enjoyed a few glasses of vino at various do's. I've also put work and my uni paper ahead of me - poor time managment. My family dog (parents) also passed on after a long life of 13 years. Sad. Today at WW, it showed up as gaining 700g (1.5lbs) over two weeks :( so now weight loss is down to 13.5kilos, still guess it is a loss.

So from here...

Get back on the exercise wagon, watch what I eat and make healthier choices, and cut down on the quickly adds on the kilos...not really worth it.

I'm also trying neural lingusitic programming with a therapist to change my way of thought about food etc. His programme is called "Get the fat out of your head" and over 12 sessions, it aims to resort and retrain my head space to be more aware and make better choices, and also work on my self image. I have nothing to lose. Will update how this goes, but before my first session on Tuesday I have a fair bit of reading to do!

Next stage of boot camp starts in about 2.5 weeks, which will be good (in the end ;) ).

Ok, not the most motivating of entries, but achieving a new life style is a roller just got to ride it! If you don't make mistakes, how can you learn.

Lets hope for better next time.


  1. Hey Cassie...sorry to hear about the whole "may not be able to have children thing"...I can totally relate to that. I have PCOS, and I can't have kids. If I had the money (and ins) I may could go thru lots of procedures and maybe have kiddos, but we don't have the money. Instead, my hubby and I are currently in the process of becoming foster parents. Its not the same, but it'll fill that void we have at our house.

    Alot of my weight gain came from my thoughts of "Well, I can't have kids, and my life sucks, so I'll just eat and eat and eat and..." I am (hopefully) taking control of that thought. It has taken alot of years for me to come to that realization that I still have a life, even without being able to have children.

    Sounds like to me that you HAVE had alot on your plate (no pun intended LOL), and you are ready to get back on track. You know what you need to do and your aware of your of your body, so I say Good For You!! You CAN do it!! :)

  2. Kia kaha chicky. Sounds like a stressful time. Thinking of you.